sometimes it is hard to think about 26 and not having experienced something that feels like a basic human experience. to have never had mutual feelings with anyone. and it feels even worse that they have never even been unreciprocated on my end. no one has ever pursued me, i have never had to be gentle with anyone’s feelings because no one has ever cared enough. i am getting better. but sometimes it is hard. and i am trying to let go of the idea it may ever happen because that is just easier. and more realistic probably. but sometimes it is hard. let go let go let go let fucking go